Down

There's some pounds gone. That's good, right? But it's interesting, because as I have noticed the weight loss, I have also noticed that I feel . . . down.  So the weight is a loss to me in more than pounds. I will have to try to discover what that is about.

Hanging over me . . .

Is a wedding dress. It's not worrying that it won't fit; it will, because I'm having it made. But I know that I don't want to be the size I am in it, whatever it decides to be as a finished product.

Facebook kindly posts ads like "The Wedding Dress Diet," and "The single tip to lose your belly" on my page. Once our status changed to engaged, the started rolling in. :-/ So even the Internet knows I want to lose weight. Fantastic.

More than a certain size, I want to be healthy. I want to do more active things, and I know that will be easier in a smaller frame.  I want to actually like tolerate my wedding pictures without a massive photoshop intervention.

I think I am actually starting to want these things more than I want to sit on the couch with a book and a popsicle.  Take that, Facebook ads. I am more in the know than you think.

Knowing isn't the answer

I really do KNOW that I sometimes eat when I'm not hungry (perversely, I also sometimes do not eat when I am hungry.I like to mix it up.)  I also know that I do not always choose the best foods to eat when I am hungry, the ones that will fill me up for less calories, the ones that will help me not go running for a cookie in an hour.

What's ANNOYING is that knowing does not always change what I end up DOING.

It would be really nice to get that part of the bridge built.

I wonder when . . .

I'm going to get this weight thing figured out? I eat pretty well, and not too much. It's the moving around thing I can't seem to subscribe to for any realistic length of time. But a wedding dress looming in my future has been  . . . motivating, especially in the eating choices department. I wish it would be a kick in my (baggier) pants, though, because I need to get out there and get some calories burning!

Maybe I'll try taping a picture of a wedding dress to my phone. That might just scare me straight out the front door and into a walk. I'll report back.